1st July Marks 121 Days To The Start of War

This year actually didn't pass any slower than previous years. I thought attending school was the only time you would feel that time flies. It was just Term 1 then now it's term 3, like orientation was just yesterday kinda feeling. Of course, the latter doesn't apply to me at all. I study alone and it's quite surprising that time is actually passing so fast to me. But most of all I'm just speechless and disappointed with myself. I was ought to finish the syllabus by like March? Then my efficiency was low and I dragged and dragged and I left it there. Then I was telling myself that I should be finishing the syllabus by end of June... On a lighter note, I'm actually sort of done with the syllabus just that my sciences are in horrible state. This is the only way that I could comfort myself, I am only left with my sciences. Not too bad right? Okay who am I kidding man.

The only way I'm trying to motivate myself is to have an end in mind, picturing of what I'll be doing after A's enjoying every moment of freedom. And most importantly telling myself that I have no more 'chance card' it's now or never. I'm very determined to go for backpacking trip, like just book an air ticket to the destination and not having to plan of when to come back till I want to. But of course I have to see how much money I have. The amount of money that I have been paying on my own could have allowed me to travel to US. I want to go to Hawaii, but I'm pretty sure it won't be anytime soon. I want to take up new sports maybe some water activities but definitely not rowing sports, too boring for me. I want to take up advanced ukulele course though I could have continued picking up on my own but I guess I could learn more. I want to learn violin, cello or harp, something out of the blue and people would never imagine doing. HAHA!

I seriously need to balance my life between studying and exercising. I'M GONNA GYM AND SWIM TOMORROW AND I'LL HEAD TO STUDY OUTSIDE STRAIGHT!

Okay enough of the wants I need to study now.