super tired and super bloated now.
gonna pack some stuffs soon,
then later head down to simei to meet cass and winnie,
to slack. lol.
class chalet tmrw,
till friday morning.

previous night, terrible night.
just dont know why it turned out like this.
had eye-wash.
it had really been long since i last teared though.
and i emptied that bucket of water in my eyes for 2hrs.
why would i feel that pain and aching in my heart all of a sudden?
trying hard to prevent myself from falling back.
please just refrain.
unemotional? to be exact, it's emotional.
hate to say, but it's all still there.

i stopped eating my med since ytdy night, though still left quite a lot.
cant resist the temptation and i drank milk today!
everything's alright now, i supposed.=)

my butt is having blueblack again.
somebody abused me!
no la, i fell. -.-
blisters+ rocky ground+ weird blades= ended up falling.
this time round i fell on the bone-part, not the cushioned-part. lol.
anw,
we bladed and cycled.
talked and crapped. lol.
finally, it's like the 5 of us, after a year or more. lol.
shall update the pictures after getting from beth.
went to wy's hse whereby the rest went home.
kill time talking.
acc her to bedok to pass some stuffs.
went tamp for awhile.
then back to west plaza for her dinner.
went home after that.

oh ya.
i gotta clear stuffs in my room real soon.
moved stuffs out since 2weeks ago, but yet to clear them.
so my room is kinda messy now.
loads of papers to clear.
there's a thousand piece of papers which i dont know where to stuff it in. zzz.

left a msg for most of the teachers today.
mrs lee called me.
she got meeting on that day, so wouldnt be able to be there.
she sent regards to the 11 of us!=D
peeps, please take note for the coming wed.

*mich, movie-date this friday still?=)

i'm really not feeling well now, seriously sick.

had a real bad night ytdy.
had to force myself to vomit cos i was feeling weird inside.
tried to sleep afterwhich.
but i felt real uncomfortable till morning.
got no choice, but to wake my mum up.
she gave me some weird weird med.
felt really cold eventhough my door and windows were closed.

went to the doctor this morning.
got gastric flu and intestines infection.
didnt expect it to be so bad.
the doctor said i was dehydrated too. -.-
got loads of med that i really dislike.
no choice though.
so now,
i cant eat many food!
cant touch any diary products or oily food. =(
i think i'm having fever now.
body aching like hell too.

i must get a good rest tonight.
please let me get better.
roller-blading and prawning tmrw.

hate that melancholiness.

well,
went around to quite a few places today.
managed to discuss for chalet stuffs with peeps at opp sch.
crapped and laughed a lot, as usual. lol.
i called the cca trial teacher, got suan-ed. -.-
u will nv know how i feel, cos i dun usually get suan-ed!
went in to east view, borrowed a floorball stick from ms chin.
hmm, she told me that i've changed quite a lot during the last time i saw her.
she meant the good way. haha.
had a chat with tan laoshi.
she sounded like she was gonna kill me.
"u're telling me that u're not using chinese and yet using this (pointing at the stick) for jc?!"
then she said,
"if u wanna go nyjc just tell me, i'll write testimonial for u."
LOL! yeap, and she said if there's a need i should tell them abt some of my conditions.

slacked few hrs off with suie and cass at tm.
took mrt to kallang at 3plus.
i had a very hard time finding that place- valhall.
and i couldnt even get a cab at that time.
spent more than half an hr to reach there.
hmm, the teacher only saw my result slip when she asked me to bring other stuffs like testimonial and other records.
had a short training with them for abt 45mins.
i shan't describe how it feels for not playing for a year.
but after awhile, i'm back again.=)
east view uses the blade at the right side, while they're using the blade at the left.
not used to it.
afterall, the teacher told me this,
regardless of which jc i'll be posted in, on the day itself, go to their jc's office and fill in the form,
and the rest will be on her.
hmm, shall see.

had dinner with jesslyn at simei.
so nice of me going there to acc u.=p
yeah, i still owe u a meal.

back to sch again, cca fair just ended.
returned the stick.
was chatting along with mr foo whereby joanna popped out all of a sudden.
surprisingly, she was there! for st john stuffs.
then we went opp sch while she ate.
chatted awhile, acc her to her hse area, then back to the coffeeshop with st john peeps.

upcoming few days will be busy!

i've got bad blisters, both sides.
damn that court shoes.

i know i'm better.

i havent send in jae application,
must remind myself to submit later.

oh yeah.
tmrw 10am meeting class peeps at tamp,
discuss abt chalet stuffs.
just saw the reply i got for cca trial.
got to go down to valhall at kallang park at 4pm.
got to check out where that place is.
i think i should call up and ask if i need to bring floorball stick.
if need, boo, gotta go lend liao.
damn, i got 3 hockey sticks at home, rusted for a year liao.

received a msg from ms rahayu.
saying that mrs florence lee is no longer in evss.
hmm, should msg or call her by this week.

jae posting results will be out on 30 jan.
jc starting sch on 2 feb,
and that week will be having orientation.

i shall submit my jae application tmrw.
need to get a reply for cca trial.
perhaps jus gonna try,
cos all of a sudden, i dont feel like going for CLEP eventhough i'll get 2 more bonus points.

rah~
nadera should be going to sajc!
cheryl too.

faster get done with everything by this week.

hmm,
i think i've only got one thing to say.
I'M FUCKING PISSED WITH MY ENGLISH RESULTS.
ppl telling me that they cant imagine me getting a c6 for english, not even the teachers,
NOT EVEN MYSELF AT ALL?
forget it,
i'm not someone who'll cry over results.
and surprisingly, i got b3 for hmt?!
i asked for a pass for that only.
seems like eng and hmt exchanged results.
alright.
i think i should be considering a jc.
most probably would be taking up the CLEP.
not sure if taking up chinese as h2 is compulsory or not, i think should be optional?
requirement- b3 for higher chinese.
if i choose this programme, i would probably have to try for nanyang jc.
mr foo gave me 3 options,
tampines, nanyang or serangoon.
it's convenient for me too,
i got straight bus to either one.
i need a jc having floorball!
i'm kinda confused with the deduction of bonus points now.
now, if i'm taking up CLEP, i'll get 2 more bonus points.
meaning, i'll get a total of 5 points deduction. (max is 6)

if i'm considering a poly,
may consider;
TP- gerontological management studies (psychology+ sociology+ business)
the rest i'm not that sure yet.

pictures for that day.

tiring day indeed.
reached home at 5plus.
managed to sleep for 2hrs,
then left home.
met cass at her place.
we went for a swim.
weather was super cold in the morning.
suie was too tired to join.
she slept while we swam.
then we met for lunch at eastpoint.
after that we went on our ways.
reached home at around 1pm.
fell into bed and slept till 5pm.

results will be out in less than 21hrs. lol.
damn.
i'm having the exact feeling when i was taking o levels months ago.
not in anxious, just heck care.
alright, just wait for the time to come.

having a feeling like, i'm not-having-a-good-mood.
but forget it.
refrain, refrain, please refrain.

i havent been feeling that exhausted like today.
slept before 12 actually.
got woken up after 2 hrs.
then slept at around 6.
woke up at 7 plus.
-.-i know, i'm not having enough sleep.
got myself prepared then headed to imh.
reached there at abt 9.
had a talk for abt an hr.
yes, i know, i did tell myself before.
change to adapt, adapt to change.
i was told that i've been better.
only got picked abt my sleeping patterns.
certainly will change it soon? lol.
the rest of it was much more like a reflection.
which i dont think i have to name everything? lol.
alright,
next appointment will be on 20 feb,
which i think is kinda long from now.
after which,
i went to hougang mall.
just to waste time actually.
was trying to read my book at the library,
and i actually fell asleep for like half an hr after 10mins of reading. lol.
woke up, couldnt stand the itch, and i went to get food.
u know wad? my weight increased by 3kg in 3days already.
dont understand why i'm taking so much food.
but dont worry, i'm not fat.=D
i couldnt take that high fatigue level,
got home and caught an hr of sleep before meeting winnie.
she spent quite a lot today? just at cotton on. lol.
till we got back to her hse again to get her extra money.
i spent around $20plus, excluding food, of cos.
got home around 6plus.

i'm meeting suie at 9AM tmrw! LOL!
i'm not lazy, no contradiction.=)
after that gonna go home wash up and meet vanessa at 12pm.

i've not been crying for a long time, i guess?
perhaps even when there's a feeling trying to press me down,
there'll be an auto-force by myself.
after all, we had been forcing against ourselves from then till now.
just to keep myself in blank, and that's good enough already.
i shouldnt be thinking abt you right? damn it.

i'm getting tired before blogging this.
i think i should seriously get more sleep tonight.
i've been sleeping in mornings,
having like less than 5hrs of sleep recently.
thought of sleeping early ytdy night,
but ended up sleeping at abt 7 in the morning.
great thing, i gotta wake up at 7plus tmrw,
having my appointment.
got a msg from miss rahayu early in the morning,
reminding abt the date, time, attire, hair and stuffs.
anw for today,
met winnie, cass and vanessa to go tp open house.
spent quite awhile there moving around the blocks.
saw many ppl there. like those kinda long-time-no-see. lol.
randomly took blood test there. lol.
the result was same as wad i knew, my bloodtype is o. haha.
after which left earlier with vanessa, had lunch, walked around.
headed down to nyp in the evening.
we were at the right timing, where everyone else was already leaving. lol.
didnt do much things there, had a super long ride back to tamp.
had dinner before heading home.

wondering when i'll be able to have a great afternoon nap?

can't read my,
can't read my.

woke up at 1pm today.
had rice after i got up.
got bathed and stuffs,
headed to tamp to meet suie.
were at the gym for abt 2 hrs.
i ate 2kg ytdy. lol.
after which, we went to pasir ris to meet winnie and cass.
cycled a round at pasir ris park.
we got kinda amazed by the horses.
horses cut bangs too. LOL!
that reminds me of JTLL. LOL! (insider joke)
i kept eating,
and eating.
they were kinda surprised of wad/how much i've eaten when they were around.
it's a miracle when i'm eating so much. LOL!
after that we went to bina's chalet.
continued eating there. lol.
a few pimples jus came out after quite some time at the bbq pit. zzz.
cabbed home jus now at abt 10plus.

everyone is talking abt 12 jan.
report at 2 for the results.
u feeling anything abt it?
i'm still in heck care mood. LOL!

selective of friends.
understand the definition well,
don't simply anyhow use it.
it doesn't apply to me.

hey damn shit!
i just knew why i ate so damn much today!
my mum was evil ytdy night!
she was doing some reflexology stuffs on my legs.
she just told me she did something that will make me have a better appetite and digestion.
and i saw the effect today!
u'll nv wanna know wad went into my stomach for the day.
and i think serene should know how many times i told her that i was eating.
nvm, it's ok.
let's go, suie. lol.

ate a lot,
ate too much,
ate hell lot.
they're all in my stomach.
no worries, dun envy. =p
let's burn it tmrw=)

i'm gonna get a good good sleep tonight.=)

marley & me,
and many more. (michelle LPS =D)

deep but that's not,
how true?

just got back home.
was out to goldenmile for breakfast/lunch/dinner at one go. lol.
winnie went for work.
ate with mich, cass and suie.
beef hor fun, fondue, iced tea.
super filling.
after which met matthias at tamp.
roller blading next week?=D

hmm,
may be sleeping early tonight?
cos i slept real 'early' ytdy, or rather this morning.
slept at 7plus, woke up at 11.
4hrs of sleep and that's enough.
called suie at abt 12plus.
talked abt recent stuffs, result and so on. lol.
tried to tempt her to eat at that hour.
but she didnt eat wad i asked her to eat.
i understand ur growing weight,
dun be envious of me. =x
while i'm eating hell load,
cos i keep getting hungry.
hung up at 2plus and continued talking online till she went to bed.
talked to serene at around 3plus till 6plus,
abt her stuffs and some random talkings. lol.

gonna watch tv.=)

i'm constantly getting hungry today.

results should be out in around 10days time?

a bit of random-ness. lol.

just that few minutes, that dont count anymore.

just woke up,

dozed off on my bed at around 5 just now.

ytdy was the 1st day of sch for some peeps.

heard that sch stuffs changed quite a lot?

miss santha got married. -.-lol.

no more sch socks. argh!

handphones are allowed during recess time.

one period now is an hr instead of half an hr.

there're enrichment classes for all levels, which latest end at 4pm.

no matter how much gumbles there were when got caught over the years,

i still miss that sch,

eventhough i always find that miss santha is super unreasonable to catch me when my hair touches the collar, as if i should follow the standard of guy's hair. lol.

i owe joanna tan a big big meal.

it has been accumulated till a real big one cos she always refused to take my money when she paid for me. lol.

picturing up, nothing's out.

hmm,
i'm kinda bored right now?
not feeling that tired eventhough i havent had that much of sleep since ytdy.
been to quite a few places ytdy.
festive season, a better reason for ppl to earn ur money.
headed to novena area for steamboat in the evening.
10 ppl went, vanessa's sisters + bfs, shiya + bf, serene, vanessa and i.
them i left at around 7plus,
met joanna and friends at clarke quay.
7 ppl together.
went to the lunar.
joanna kept saying i was damn lucky to get through the checking of ids.
was the only one underage. lol.
think the person some sort closed one eye too?
entrance fee $35. -.-new year eve, and so, yeah.
initially wanted to drink chivas, but it costs like $400plus.
it's kinda ex? lol.
had vodka peach instead. together with a few mixers, $200plus?
joanna was super evil.
said will take care of me, keep making me drink. -.-lol.
many cheers up.
the hotter my face got the louder her laughs got too.
this shows much of evil-ism. haha!
it got burning, then she pulled me to the dancefloor area together with friends. lol.
craziness, and it brings up the crowd. lol.
left the place at around 1plus after the countdown there.
followed the rest while they got some food.
then walked to the esplanade area.
left when serene came to fetch at around 2.
before that joanna wasnt allowing me to leave.-.-haha
alright.
headed to her hse while the others were there earlier on.
played cards, then mahjong.
till 8plus in the morning. lol.
won some money.
left to vanessa's hse.
bathed, slept, woke up at 3plus then meet jesslyn together at expo.
done with her stuffs then she went home for dinner.
we then had our dinner at bedok.
got back to her hse, we self-entertained, by playing 2-player mahjong game. lol.
got back home at around 9.

at the cross junction, no u-turn please.
let go before you meet a better person to deserve yourself better.
wouldnt be hiding, it would be opened where everyone sees in future.

this is gonna be the last post of the year.
i wouldnt sound depressed. lol.
this year is kinda short,
dont u think so? haha.
or time just passed faster during sec4 life?
i think i only rmb sec3 and sec4 life.
times when i began to get better?
i hope i wont make myself regret for stuffs in this coming year?
just like u know,
i shouldnt had been distracted so so so much,
till i didnt really study much for o levels.
anw, its over. lol.
the results, be it good or bad, it's just my consequence of choices.
choices of schools?
wait till the results are out then decide?
be a good and better new life.


hmm, i dont make resolutions for every year.
i dont really like planning up this stuffs?
cos many things might happen,
everything changes just like how u change ur attires.
i'm looking forward my next appointment.
which is changed to 9 jan by the therapist.
i wonder wad wisdom of life he would add on?
or maybe i dont have to go for further sessions anymore?
wait till then and see.
i think i wouldnt be having a much laid-back life for the coming year?
when time is up, all u have to do is just not to concern abt it.
that's wad i'm doing?
hey!
i dont sound passive like before right?
i suppose it's a damn good thing. lol.


if i were being asked,
i'll say, the love is still there, as much as before, as much as i always said to you, not any lesser.
but, it's being well kept in my heart for now.
you shall be the 1st layer stacked in my heart.
have to say, it used to be the bestest one.
and i have to say,
i wouldnt know wad's up if it wasnt the old you.
thank you.
i wouldnt know wad's down if it wasnt the new you.
thank you.
if it's not you,
i wouldnt know wad's everything like.
i'm not feeling sorry anymore.
if you're happy, you're enjoying, why not?
i know i'll be able to find somebody who keeps words, talks abt sincerity and promises.
it would be better for me, i believe.


happy 2009 to all of you out there!=D

i'm early,
dont u think so?
woken up by the construction going on upstairs again.
a new year in 2 days?
kinda envy those peeps who are going back sch to start a new semester again.
got to admit that i had nv missed going back to sch like i'm now.
it's like super long nv crap with those teachers.
and yeap, like wad winnie said, (one of it)
*eating in class*
i'll always get hungry before 7.30am. (before sch starts)
the whole year with michelle being a great buddy.=D
at the science labs, lessons, and after sch.
heading to almost everywhere for food/movies.
and, angela, we both entertain ourselves a lot.
most of the times throwing lemons at each other. LOL!
had great time with the 6girls for the year.

anw for ytdy,
i was being digged out from bed by my mum again at 10plus in the morning. ( slept at 5plus)
it seems like i'm not needing that much of sleep nowadays.
which i used to sleep for almost 14hrs a day during weeks ago.
i went for tanning for around 40mins at some place, some place where ppl would think it's funny.
just sat there with the burning back.
then headed to gym.
it was the ladies gym for ytdy. (almost cant get myself in.)
saw xinyi and jolene there. LOL!
yes, i dont perspire much in gym.
after which went over to serene's hse.
cabbed to amk hub.
together with her bro and her bro's gf,
we watched bedtime stories.
it's another again for me. lol!
her bro and his gf left,
we headed back to bedok next.
went over to vanessa's hse,
watched tv.
got out to get dinner back after the 9pm show.
left at 12plus.
walked back to serene's hse and i cabbed home from there.
i think the words above are kinda detailed? lol.

meeting joanna at clarke quay tmrw.
together with a few of her sim mates.
spending the night out.

i'm kinda hungry now.

oh yeah,
forgot abt this.
for girls who're interested, go take a look.
http://ensnaemodo.livejournal.com/
i'm being nice =D hee.
the person dont wanna let ppl know her identity.