i cant use the comp in my room,
there's some problems in the damn connection,
so now i'm in the living room.
i'm bored, as usual.
nth much today actually.
i kept the soya milk outside the fridge for 6hrs and it turned bad.
nutrisoy one, the bad one tasted like some weird chemical and not sourish.
had many sub-meals today.
i'm hungry now. lol.
my weight is on the way down.
lesser and lesser.
why?

i know i'm doing it at my best already.
i wanna do it.
i'll make myself believe.
life changes all the time, it always.
it wouldnt always stay long for sure, the same goes to every single one, for all kinda situation,
either good or bad.
there wasnt anyone before you, thus you were the only one who met my subconscious criteria.
you may not be that wonderful though, but yet you fit into it in the past, like how i fit into your subconscious criteria too.
when one changed, like you, everything will change.
i'm not gonna have certain criteria in mind for now,
but i'm not taking you into the picture.
thanks for being a so called passer-by in life.
although life with you gone still upsets me,
but i'm still doing it with myself.
till the day you can really be a friend and we'll see how? or maybe we'll never be?

personal growth,
at state of mind and heart.