skip reading this post if u wanna console me/think/ ask stuffs.

festive seasons are coming.
festive seasons are sure gonna be hurting too.
there are too many reasons to explain.
upon thinking,
jus abt 2months to january.
call this fast or slow?
i dunno.
i jus knew that the coming few months are jus gonna be cruel to me as well,
all the cruelty jus couldnt stop siding u against me.
how great?
found that trying to fake a smile is the hardest thing to do,
the same goes to trying to stop those tears flowing out from my eyes.
it has jus been a daily routine.
i think i could nv get myself out of these shit.
words of consolation wouldnt be a point of helping.
since when have i been sensitive to numbers?
perhaps its too long ago.
hate the feeling getting sensitive over that numbers.
hate the feeling getting reminded of when passing certain places.
it's already 22 nov 2008.
i'm not sensitive to this day.
two years back i havent even know u officially,
one year back we were sticking together almost everyday.
how time changes?
how cruel one can be?
how senseless one can be?
roaming alone along the streets,
reminding me of many shits.
i've got nth to believe in,
no rope to cling on,
cant even hang on there any longer.

damn that imh,
i would have to get referral from cgh.