had a hell night ytdy.
fought through such a hard war to get myself to sleep.
lie on bed at 1plus,
slept at 3plus,
woke up at 6plus.
sheesh..

found out that i could take bus 109 there the nex time.
more convenient than bus 88.
i was kinda late,
it took me quite long to find that block 3 to cgc- child guidance clinic. (dun laugh!it was meant for under 19.)
and i tell u,
i'm case 1,
cases 2-4, they're all kids younger than 5 years old. -.-
right.
my consultation doctor and psychologist are all males.
-.-i cant imagine after few qns he had to offer me tissue papers already.
and damn,
the qns are straighforward, and so much sensitive enough la.
the doctor thought of prescribing medicine,
after that he said better not,
afraid that the side effects may worsen suicidal thoughts. lol.
so,
i'll have to go for further therapy and skill learning.
total charges for the day $98.13,
after subsidy, $35.
nex appointment is nex year. lol.
8 jan 09.

i was asked to think of wad i could do to add meaning to my life?
he gave me a month plus to think of wad i wanna do for coming year.
i gave many many answers like- don't know?/no idea?/not sure?/like?/as in?/ya?
i dun want family counsel, i dun need my family to be there.

spent half of my day at hougang roaming around.