a day break after 5 long days in school.
i dont mind going to school anyway. lol.
only wished to have few more hrs of sleep, thats all.

finally, gonna have proper volleyball training from the coming week onwards.
dont really like training to be that light.

pull-ups, push-ups,
pain and ache in trapezius and rhomboideus area.
maybe not gonna train my back this weekend.

the toy poodle pup is having a stay at my hse for a week.
its round fat stomach is bigger than his head. lol.

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mesmerized by the beauty in the eyes.

dionne was snapping at the back! lol.

emelia.

i'm tired, am i?
i think the days are passing just kinda fast.
few days back,
i dont really rmb for some stuffs. -.-
met cass and suie ytdy after sch.
it rained, weather was so cooling,
and we swam.
hmm, i dont really like the weather to be too cold.
talked for awhile at starbucks till abt 11pm.
cabbed home after that.
i think i should cut down on some miscellaneous fees.
having enough money for my own use,
i have been like spending on food and stuffs in sch without concerning the amount i have in my wallet.
from next week onwards i shall save $40 per week.
eventhough it's less than half of my allowance per week. -.-
i'll be spending more than half of my allowance on food. zzz.

my econs tutor said 89 times of ok in 60mins for tutorial today. LOL!
yes, i counted that.
it was kinda annoying to keep hearing that word- ok.

i got a lot of hw today!
shag. cant sleep early.

i feel contented just being able to get distracted from damn thoughts even if it's just for awhile in school.

you may lead someone on without even knowing it, so be kind.
if you dont intend on calling them or seeing them ever again, dont say it.
(is this true? i dont know, just coincidental i think?)
or maybe it's kinda late or something?
nvm, still, shant gonna do anything deliberately.
let nature takes its course.

woke up at 2plus this afternoon.
finally got more than 12hrs of sleep!=D
only got to study econs today.
must really complete my hw tmrw.

i think i spent a lot today. zzz.
was traveling around for almost the whole day since i woke up.
went to town,
got my backpack at heeren's num.
got the dark blue one,
cos the black one is completely out of stock!
i like the gold printings on the black bag.=(
i like the pink one, the orange one, and the white one.
LOL! i think all the colours are nice la.
but those bright colours will look weird with together my uniform.
$126 for the bag,
$20 for pencil case,
almost $40 for stationery and stuffs,
$13 for planner.
been spending so much on school stuffs.

embrace the past, should i?

it's friday.
hmm, kinda weird cos there's no sch tmrw.
time seems to pass faster, dont know why too. lol.

had pe today.
all the other classes were like playing games while we were running on the track. -.-
2 rounds for warm-up, 6 rounds for 2.4km, total 8rounds, 3.2km.
HAHA! amazing enough. (i'm not the kind that's super into running, in fact, i dont like it.)
3.2/100km done in sr. it just got started.
wanted to run for another 800m to get my 1st chop one,
but couldn't, cos i left the sch earlier.
lessons for today supposed to end at 2.30pm,
left early at 1.20pm.
the admin stuffs are so troublesome.
first thing, the ____ person from imh cheated my money!
she asked for $2, i gave, thought that she wanna exchange. -.-
after that she asked me wad notes i'm still having,
and i said $10s and $50.
then she said, can give me $50?
of cos, i was like -.-, no?
nvm, treat it as i was being nice for giving that $2. zzz.
i think i had a great exchange with the psychologist today.
some sort of funny stuffs which i dont really rmb.
he asked, " so did you like/fall in love with anyone in your new school?"
i said, "hmm.. sadly, no..."
then he asked me to go for one, but not a long-term relationship at this age of 17. -.-lol.
he explained some complicated stuffs by using a, b and c for example. lol.
yes, i got the picture of it.
i'll put this in mind,
the right decision may not seem beneficial in short term situation.
he mentioned, trust is the key, but it's not there for now already.
he said he could tell that the emotional thing in me for that person had developed stronger,
and also, the feelings. the damn feelings which i cant even get it out of me for so lonngggg.
i just got to hang on there.
and, today's session got me to cry. zzz. lol.
which i cant let it out ytdy night.
at least i feel a little better.
i shall make the move to excuse myself out from the confusion in there.

from 3plus to 8pm,
i was killing my time at hougang library and then to tamp gym.
waited for jesslyn to finish her work.
alright.
thank you for dating me out and treated me dinner! haha.

and,
suie's gonna date me out on this coming tue night.
for a swim at cass's place. lol.

i shall be good and do my LOADS of hw tmrw.
thought of going to t3,
it has been quite some time since i was there.
shall see how it goes.
i need to go town to get my stuffs. -.-

i will sleep early tonight.
but i guess i'll wake a few times in the night again.
have to eat some med for some nice sleep.

school's getting ______. ( i also dont know wad.)
skip the school part today.
met mich after school at sr area!=)
headed to chomp chomp for our dinner.
there should be quite a lot of good food there.
we had quite a lot of food.
super full after that.
miss the times going almost everywhere for food and stuffs with her after school.
hope there'll be time for movies next week.=)

school should be finishing at 7 tmrw.
meeting jesslyn after that.

so much of uncertainty.
chose to let myself fall again, preparing for a better grip to get myself up like again.
there's really so much to say, yet i cant put them into words anymore.
come on, let the water out tonight.

i'm super lack of sleep this week!
reached home at 12midnight ytdy.
made myself complete the maths before going to sleep.
sch ended late these 2days.
i dont really like free periods!
i had 3hrs of free period today from 12.30pm.
after 3 hrs, then assembly till 5pm.
was like crapping with classmates for that few hrs.
got changed and we went to get a ball from the pe tcher and played basketball.
it was super funny to see them play. (cos they dont know how to play basketball.)

hope i wont doze off suddenly during the lectures for tmrw,
like wad i did today.

ms rivera was trying very hard to convince me to join basketball.
but was kinda sorry, kept rejecting.
reason being, i really dont have the passion in it anymore.
and i look forward to take up other sports. =D
2nd trial for volleyball tmrw. =)

got imh appointment this fri at 2.
should i request to leave sch early? (but i'll have to explain everything for going for the appointment and stuffs)
or i should change my appointment timing?
shall decide on thurs.

felt so ___.
really dont like to think of you like again, everytime, everyday.
it was really unintentional, i swear.
but i really cant do anything to it.

i shall go to bed in minutes time.
i know it's still very early to the rest of the peeps!=(
10hrs of school tmrw, no choice.

alright.
my hair is super black and short now.
now i know how it feels to see your hair being snipped off,
which you kept it for like more than 4months. zzz.
amazingly long for me already.

got a pair of nike zoom.
thought of nike free initially, but dropped the idea.
for no reason,
i just need many things new. =)
a shoebag.
$130 FOR NUM BACKPACK. =D
i want many pairs of socks. lol.
new file.
new pencil case.
haha!
i'll get half of them by this week.=)

my lips are cracking like mad.

og mates;

orientation ended on thurs.
formal lessons start next week!
got timetable liao.
i think i'm nv gonna be free on weekdays.
dismissal time;
mon- 5.30pm
tue- 5pm
wed- 3.30pm, cca- 3.30-7pm
thurs- 3.30pm
fri- 2.30pm, cca- 3.30-7pm
i'll be like spending most of my time in school nowadays.

had volleyball trial.
my wrist area is painful.
blisters are painful.
but the trial was enjoyable. lol.
dont know why, gotta go for trial again next wed.
and i shall rmb to wear running shoes.

had a full day of talks ytdy.
first two weeks of orientation they were so lenient.
BUT NOW,
i got caught for so many damn things!
only a earstud allowed, alright.
no other accessories, alright.
hair colour, must dye black again, alright.
THE SUPER NOT ALRIGHT THING IS,
they're not satisfied with my hairstyle!
what's wrong man?
kinda got blacklisted.
they were like asking me to cut short, yet not that short.
they still said something like, NO LAYERS AT THE BACK. -.-
the sides must cut,
if i get the sides of my hair shaven like previous years,
i bet they'll nv gonna accept it.
some more dont allow my hair to be standing.
still asked me to use hairband if it's standing up naturally.
LMAO, crappy enough.
i shall get a haircut and dye back my hair again tmrw.
just gonna trim short short.
goodbye to my long hair at the back which i kept for at least 4months. (counted as super long to me already)

must get econs lecture notes by monday.

i'm so tired!
so far till now, did have fun at school.
tmrw is the finale, orientation is ending.
am in 1s22, orion.
if i'm not wrong, there's 32 science stream classes and abt 10 art stream classes.
the school had cca recruitment today.
saw peeps signing up for so many cca-s.
i only signed up for volleyball.
there's this dunno wad session on this coming friday at 3.30pm.
there're new cca-s like pilates and yoga. LOL!
how nice if i can join few cca-s?
like the runners club, touch rugby, canoeing, rock climbing.

got the h2 maths lecture notes today.
formal lessons gonna start next monday onwards.

my civic class has 24 students,
10 guys, 14 girls.
now, i still think that cg mates are not as fun as og mates. =/
i kinda miss 404. =(
or maybe it's quite a lot?
you know the feeling is really different.

school is ending at 6pm tmrw.
i shall bathe soon and get my nap.

having many ec-s in school is not a bad thing though.

my throat feels weird.
think i've been coughing too much.

this weekend passed really fast to me.
havent even got enough sleep at all.
reached home at 7plus this morning.
been to daniel's hse.
played through the night.
slept for abt 2 hrs and went out to meet ik and peeps.
went to mr tan's hse at rivervale.
it was much of a house full of ex-meridians, teachers and students.
we got extra red packets though. =p
headed back to ik's hse at around 4.
played cards, managed to win abt $10.

met class peeps on sat.
we went to mrs chua's hse.
joy is cute.
she's not like others who cries a lot in front of so many ppl.

i got uniforms and stuffs for srjc already.
got into my first choice for subjects combination.
h2; chemistry, economics, maths and h1 physics.
and yes, there's school tmrw, games orientation.
gonna end at 5pm for few days.
from tmrw on, no fathima or rachel in sr anymore.

dont know what the hell am i thinking about.
sometimes i really wonder what's your motive?
or rather, i should say, it's all the times, just that it has been kept.
is this gonna be a trick to screw my life and bring me back to the starting point again?
after 8 months though, i think i'm still able to give myself some time to get harsh again.
dont let me find out about any monkey business.
if you're being a threat here, can you please be kind this time, for once and for all?
i need to know, but i just cant find any point of asking.
it seems so hard to know what is true?
i'm pissed, dont know with who,
or perhaps just myself?

we forgot to take pictures at last stop! -suie's hse.

at cass's place;

at xueling's place;
at jerome's place;

at dhana's place;

at my place;
the previous day at winnie's hse;

kinda busy recently.
tiring.
feeling sick too.
luckily school is starting at 8.30am tmrw.
and the same goes to every friday.
cos it's some sort of exercise day for all teachers and some students who wanna go.

had different introductory lectures for every hr today.
first was gp, wrote and handed in 400-word essay in 45mins.
economics next. it sounds kinda interesting.
break for 30mins.
the next hr, we were supposed to choose either sub lecture to go to. (eng lit, chi lit, bio, history.)
i went for the history one, cos there wasn't any others for my sub combi.
i think jc history is gonna be a killer man.
we used to have choose 1 out of 3 for essays.
but for jc level, choose 3 out of 5 for essays.
4 full-sided page per essay, in 3 hrs with sbq too.
the cold war in o level is just the beginning, sub part of it only.
last lecture of the day was maths.
did further skills/ methods on partial fractions.
amazingly, my maths didnt rust at all. lol!

these few days had been meeting up class peeps.
the lucky ones, still enjoying holidays, having long sleep hours.
gonna meet up again on sat to mr foo and mrs chua's house.

tmrw meeting up with wy and peeps.
and oso sunday to mr tan's house.

shall post pictures again after getting all.

first day of school today.
i'm too tired.
must get used to waking up early and all.
just got my ez-link card activated,
meaning i'm paying for student fare now!=)

it ended at 3plus today.
like so late. zzz.
and orientation is for TWO WEEKS you know.
this week is just mainly academic orientation, next week then starts with the bonding and stuffs.
luckily it's ending a little earlier than today for tmrw.
gonna choose subjects for tmrw online.
i should be choosing- h2; chemistry, maths, econs and h1; physics.
alternative- h2; chemistry, maths, econs and h1; history.

well.
full of talks today.
many many icebreaker games.
was kinda bored then.
at the end of the day knew a few peeps.
new cut-off point for srjc, 17 for both streams. lol.
talked to mrs moraes too.
she's teaching pw for year one only.

i'm too tired now.

don't wanna get affected or repeat anything.

school is starting tmrw.
fathima will be coming over to my area and take bus to school together.
damn, no more student fare for the time being.
i dont have the habit of tapping my card when i'm alighting,
and now, i mus put this in mind.

my hair is super black now. argh.
so not used to it.
if u're seeing me often,
u'll find my hair colour weird. lol.
and everyone is laughing, even those at home. lol.
nvm, i look guai now.=p
sian, not that many starting school tmrw though.

dont think i'll be sleeping that early tonight.
gonna play mahjong with my brothers 1st. haha.