jus going to be random.

damn phone auto deleted 12000 messages in my inbox in the middle of the night. damn.

home alone,

good and bad thing. lol.

nobody knows if i'm dead or alive.

haha. i know i may sound hilarious when i said i actually forgot my meals,

and it was even funnier to say that i forgot 2-3 meals. -.-

shall upload pictures taken for today nex time.

some pictures taken ytdy in sch:

it feels so dead still,

couldn't describe any further.

had teacher's day celebration today.
will post the pictures when mich get it done.
the beginning part was easy for me,
not feeling anything.
whole class working on well with the class party for ms rahayu.
reached classroom around 6.50am.
till when we were at the hall.
weird, weirdo, weirdness.
that kinda feeling came back again,
empty and heavy,
it was really unbearable.
went back,
meet wy, ik, ym and cheryl at meridian that area.
slacked around.
most of the time in a daze though.
a few more joined.

i'm telling u something,
tmrw is weekend!=(
cruelty of mine=(

-.-there's still like a week time to know our prelim results. zzz.

it's not easy,
it's really not,
it has been too hard on me,
and do u know?
tell me everything will start again back at the starting point.

tmrw will be the last day of prelim.
nex week is sept holiday.
it seemed like long way to go before getting back our papers.
i terribly bored now.

another 27,
third 27,
without ur presence.
sigh.
right.

physics paper 2 and hmt paper 1 today.
physics paper was manageable.
not really a problem.
after that lunched with mich, branson and co.
went back to classroom,
did the plane we got for mr foo.
abt half done now,
left with the painting.
hmt paper 1 still ok.
i didnt rust that much ok! LOL!
it was damn bloody cold at the classroom.
they got new aircon i think? lol.
i'm left with 2 written papers,
science pract.
class photo taking tmrw.

i hope ur that will end,
dun get even deeper.
i didnt want u to have any change.

history paper today.
i didnt study much,
didnt memorise anything at all,
and of cos,
it wouldnt help much for essays.
the sbq this time wasnt that good though.
it was rather to be tricky and a lot of hidden meaning.
left with science papers now.
tmrw and wed. thurs pract.
went to t3 with mich jus now.
reached at around 10am plus,
pretty early.
walked around.
had lunch.
went to tcc,
did a little bit of studying.
lol. lucky enough,
we saw the singapore players.
sailing team, tao li, lijiawei and fengtianwei.
after that, walked around again before going home.
gonna go so-called study now.
going ws, with w and s there. LOL!


i kept falling for u over and over again,
should say that it had nv change.
i loved u from the start till now,
had been holding on to ur words.
if it were to be there over again,
i wouldnt let anything change,
nv at all.

met mich at t3,

had lunch,

met mr foo.

he gave us some sbq practices.

explained abt some of the content.

treated us at tcc=)

branson joined us later.

mich went off at around 5,

i left at 6.30.

-.-i shouldnt get myself around the airport alone nex time. zzz.

anw, the pictures below, took it when we having lunch.

LOL! winnie should see it.

damn alot of 'stems' right? LOL!

they were like kept growing in the bowl, never ending. haha.

dreams can't take the place of loving you,

there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

when you look me in the eyes,

and tell me that you love me.

everything was alright,

when you were right here by my side.

i can't take a day without you here,

you're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

it's just not fair,

and it's tearing me apart.

what hurts the most,

was being so close,

and having so much to say.

everywhere i go,

it's hard to deal with the pain of losing you.

angela was creatively using my pm to shoot me:

ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
need any first aider?
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
hahah!
huiting says:
LOL!
huiting says:
no need no need..
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
SURE?!
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
i scared lehs
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
cnt take it
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
mus tell me
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
hahaha!
huiting says:
hahaha~
huiting says:
ok!sure!
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
hahaha
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
u noe why must tell me not
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
becos
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
i ,
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
从来不肯假想 失去你那感受
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
tsktsk!
huiting says:
walao!
huiting says:
u anyhow only
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
ya lorrrrrrrrrrr
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
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ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
hahaha


huiting says:
now scuba diving!
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
HAHAHAHA
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
no
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
la
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
dun la
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
huiting
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
dun la
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
later u die how?
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
lol!
huiting says:
i die in the ocean..it's ok..lol
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
LOL
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
HOW CAN!
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
i 从来不肯假想 失去你那感受
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
>.< huiting says:
wa~
huiting says:
u this angela ar!
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
hahahah
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
WAT WAT
huiting says:
keep using back same evidence to support ur inference leh!
ANGELA this game of life is one big struggle says:
YEAPS!

ss paper wasn't really that good or that bad.
2 of the essays,
did one properly,
another with jus 3 para.
lol.
it's weekend tmrw=( *cries*
i'm still in my pit.
can anyone pull me up?

do i break some kinda world record?
for, dreaming the same person for 6nights?

闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
如果说分手是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前
我愿意再爱一遍

few minutes break.
dun ever study ss/hist one day before exam,
you're gonna suffer like hell!
i'm still left with the whole lot of fall of venice~
coffee makes me sleep, why? lol.
i'm falling sick,
actually should say i'm already sick. zzz.
-.-havent touch physics,
paper1 tmrw.

super mixed feelings.
donate the organs.
especially the heart.
get away.

emaths paper 1,
manageable for everyone.
amaths paper 1,
it'll be jus pass or jus fail?i think?
lol.
tmrw's english paper 2.
nth to study now.
jus slacking as usual at home. zzz.

empty, empty, it's empty!
and, it's already been the 4th night.
i couldnt control.

prelim starts today.
english paper 1 today.
it was quite ok though.
i dunno why,
i feel nth for exams suddenly,
seeing everyone else studying makes me feel real damn bored.
i jus wanna have some fun.
i dun study at home,
jus not the right place and the right mood.
my so-called that kinda positive mood only maintain for 6 days last week.
on sunday,
it dropped dead.
i jus dun like weekends.
it always remind me things, many many things.
-.-zzz
i feel so dead,
today(weekday-monday) still feel so shag.
anyway,
after english paper,
headed to round market with mich and cass for a meal.
went back sch, stayed at library to wait for p.physics paper to end.
studied a little in class.
it rained, and i fall asleep for 45mins.
been hearing mich, cass and suie voices in my sleep-.-
mich ate dinner with me. lol. dun complain!
emaths paper 1 and amaths paper 1 tmrw.
braincells-killing papers.

i wanna i wanna i wanna vent out this weird feeling in me!
wad can i do?!
everything still reminds me of u,
worse of all,
i dreamt of u 3 nights in a row.
killer.

so many ppl's birthdays happen to be in august.
hmm. ok. random.
my legs are aching now.
walked 15k+ steps till now,
around orchard, somerset and dhoby ghaut.
got atiqah and iylia stuffs.
mich finish her magging.
suie accompanied us.
saw the trainee cheryl chen at kino. lol.
brought back stuffs from my under desk.
damn. it was heavy.
sitting in register order for prelim already.
and it's 3 days to prelim from now. lol.
mr foo still being as cheeky/wacky as ever.
he kept calling me cj7. argh! like zzz.
sian. it's weekend tmrw. it's a phobia again.

i didnt know i'll dream of it,
didnt expect it at all.
why am i feeling ur touch in my dream?
why do i happen to dream of u?
all the feelings were still there in my dream,
seeing u next to me like before.
everything was gone at the moment when i opened my eyes.
u know,
it was really saddening.
and yes,
i thought i could not think abt it,
but..

staying back in class for some revision these few days.
did quite a lot of chemistry recently.
i think my amaths now is _____.
cmi in short. lol.
can say is no much effort willing to put in it.
didnt know why too.

watched a few hockey matches recently.
dunno why,
but kinda miss the feeling at the pitch some how.
those long socks and shinpads.
sunburns, yelling, body aching, slacking after trainings.
thought abt it,
realised that i was actually having a busy life last year,
as seen from my posts from before too.
it's like so packed all days,
with much of floorball/hockey trainings,
hmt lessons,
pure sciences,
and some other stuffs which were no longer around now.
i think if a person who has a lot of sports trainings will know the feeling abt it.
it's like u wont feel any troubles or stuffs during trainings.
i kinda yearn for the feeling back.
commit in something that will really benefit me.
wait,
is this reminiscing?
oh yes it is.
fine. as said reminiscence=melancholy.

if i can control myself,
i'll 1st get u out of my mind/life.
didnt wanna suffer/rely on u,
which isn't benefitting me in these recent while.
but,
it's jus a part of my thinking.
it contradicts too.
right.

that dumb miss aiyer dun wanna watch movie tmrw!=(
rah~

oral wasn't that bad today!=D
the feeling was undescribable.
i have nv had such an oral without much prompt by the tchers.
everything was fluent enough.
bad thing abt this oral was,
i waited real long.
didnt even have those kinda nervous feeling while i was waiting till i read the 1st para of the passage.

we've been talking abt the olympic games.
LOL! to anyone in class, whoever who watches it.

last pe lesson we had today. sadly.
most enjoyable game of handball.
cos we were grouped into 5.
every one gets to play,
and mdm chiew graded us.
i think the keepers got a lot of internal injuries. LOL! sorry.
we played to the fullest. lol.
pe lessons, made me with no worries.
how i wish i can always be like that.

4e5n got back mt results.
overall is actually under-performed as wad mr foo said,
but 404 did quite well!
falling in the range of mostly As and B3s.

prelim is in 6days time.

i wish i could have a thorough brainwash.

english oral tmrw.
dun forget to bring entry proof.
sian.
7days to prelims.
i'm kinda not feeling well now.
be nice enough,
please dun give me sore throat tmrw.
why do newborns welcomed the world with a cry?

变了心的人
越想越伤人
爱得很深所以心很疼
放不开也看不见未来
只是永远我都放不开
最后的温暖
完全忘记往日为何
能与我彻夜缠绵
哭笑不得

i didnt know it was so hard.
hard for me to get ...
hard for you to give a ...
you fit perfectly well to word starts with S,
selfish/ self-centered
stubborn

now there's a million reasons for u to go,
but if u can find a reason to stay,
i'll do whatever it takes.

but it seemed so impossible now. sigh.

hmm.
it's national day today.
beijing olympic open ytdy,
performances were kinda cool,
especially those man-made effects.
waited for 2hrs to see singapore came out for like 10secs.

national day celebration in sch.
it wasn't really that bad though,
but i find it kinda short.
an hr plus stayed in class for t-shirt(s) design competition,
less than an hr watching performances at the hall.
china students were with us all the way.
i find it really hilarious that they were crazy over matthias, jerome and amos.
yeap, it's jerome and amos. LOL!
they couldn't stop taking pictures of/with them.
we didnt really take a lot of group photo ytdy.
ms rahayu was busy snapping pictures.
she took one of mine saying that i looked like those cds sellers when i sat on the table-.-

my product, i meant the shirt. lol.

pictures taken ytdy were g-RED-ness.

为何后来我们用沉默取代依赖, 曾经朗朗星空渐渐阴霾.

i still feel your touch in my dream. it's really hard to survive without you. baby i really need you back, but that will happen if you change your mindset:( can you not be so harsh on me?you took away my heart when you left, can/will you ever return to me with my heart?you're the one whom i concern most, no one else would stand the important place in my heart. can't you feel it?

i've been blogging constantly. lol.
ms rahayu chased after MC today.
told her only can give her LETTER she kept saying she jus want MC.
which is like zzz.
where the hell am i suppose to look for a mc?
unless you're telling me that doctors provide mc of any dates?
jus gonna give her letter if she wants.
mdm chiew wasn't in sch today!
almost didnt have pe!
whole class objected!
kept saying it was the last second pe lesson this year already,
and also much emphasizing on WE'RE 404. LOL!
and, yay-ness, we got our pe=)
played handball together with the sec2 girls. lol.
headed to goldenmile after sch with mich and cass.
we complained when we were on our way there,
complained when we were on our way home,
the matters on whether our stomachs are super empty or super full. lol.
damn. i missed the 7pm show for 45mins.
slept at 5pm and woke up at 7.45pm.
chem test this thurs.
take back that sad word goodbye
bring back the joy to my life
don't leave me in all this pain

actually i didnt spend much time on studying today.
guilty. tsk tsk.
only did emaths paper.
having pe tmrw.=)
dunno is last 2nd lesson already=(
8 more days to o level oral.
i'm the last person to take=(
14 days to prelim.
sian. really didnt cover much.
i'm really trying already.

baby why can't we just start over again
get it back to the way it was

nth much.
got haircut.
not going sch tmrw.
same goes to cass and mich.
i'm very tired today.
6 things that have been doing:
-sleep, not very well.
-maths papers.
-auto eye wash. lol.
-think, think, think.
-consuming air more than food.
-suaning ppl.

why do i deserve all these punishments?
it's ____, all i want for now.
你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀
能不能想一想你让我多伤

meet mich at 10am.
went to sajc's open hse.
at first we still thought that we had been there on the wrong date. lol.
but it wasn't so.
students there were very friendly. lol.
the sch was really big.
saint andrew's village, consists of- sajc, sajs, a kindergarden, 2 chapels. LOL!
mr danker is the hockey coach at saints!=D
in fact, their uniform is much like by us- me and mich.
LOL! it's like the best jc uniform we've seen.
there are still some other open house-es we thought of going,
it's during oct-.-
3rd-meridian
4th-victoria(suie wanted to go)
8th-anglo-chinese
11th-anderson

宁愿没出息求你别离开

it's friday again.
looked at the whiteboard today.
it's 17 days to prelim.
i started revision abt a month ago,
and now,
i think i've kinda stop/really slow down damn lot.
-.-anyone teach me how to study?
shouldn't have gone sch today-.-
mrs ng wasn't here today- 3 periods free.
mt- 2 periods free.
and that damn library! having maintenance at such a right timing!
=( cant print my humans notes this week.
1 period of chem today was boring,
ms ang spent whole period jus to go through the metals ws.
nex was history,
even worse, cos it's boring.
did sbq.
much of sbq this week.
mrs mani was back today.
she came to take over mrs ng for 3 periods.
much of herself, continue criticising ppl and so on.
-.-she complained abt the way i sit- and it's always.
complained abt earstuds,
this time didnt complain abt my hair though.
but it was pretty much of entertainment for us to have her for maths lessons.
it's hard to be me when u're not around.
u control it all.
can't there be a little change?